Another one of my serious posts because i'm a drama-fag.

I've been thinking a lot.
As the days pass by, and i see how terribly alone i am, i question why i still keep going.
I don't just do that now, i do that every time i realize it again.

I question my reasons to keep going, and more importantly, how i do it.
Everyone has left me, i have no one i can see, hear or feel, just this screen.
The screen, this exact monitor.
I stare at it mindlessly, waiting for more text to appear, from the only people that do still talk to me.

Looking at the screen, i think: "Isn't is funny that the only people that still want to talk to me, are at least an ocean away?"
I question that too, does everyone hate me because of my looks?
Am i that ugly? Do i smell bad?

Thinking about all this, i still don't understand how and why i'm still continuing.
Am i expecting a brighter future? Am i expecting everyone to just change their minds and suddenly like me?
I know some people think they understand it all, but that's wrong.
They are loved, their personality is picture perfect, they can be friends with anyone they want if they try.

I'm bound to stay in solitude, the dark, quiet, cold room, with only the screen granting it that little shine.
I keep going, and i don't know why.
I must really be an idiot.

I never seem to stop, even at the times i know i should.

A cold hard truth about how I feel. Episode II

I really really hate when people coward their way out in life.

What I mean is the people who don't take responablity with their actions, place blame on others and never set up on their faults.

This little moment had something to do with work.

A cold hard truth about how I feel. Episode I

I just wish that the people who piss me off would just vanish, I would be more than happy to remove them from the face of the existence myself.

A good piece of news from me?!

Ok cool you all paying attention?
Alright then we shall begin.
My whole weekend started by going to my mates house so we could do fireworks night and the go to thorpe park (theme park)

Ok fireworks night for those of you unaware is the british celebration of paralment not getting blown up (dont ask)
But if you were british you'd also know that at this time of the year theres 3 different weather: Rain, fog or wind.This year we got RAIN.
It pored it down and we got soaked as my mates ben and shaun tried their hardest to set the fireworks off.
Where as i stayed with the ladies and little kid ben and jess have, ryan.

so fireworks night got canceled,no big woop.

next day we went to the theme park and did many things went on many rides (including getting soaked by a water ride twice..i got wet on the ride then walked out as the wave hit from the next car, i was in the middle of it too).

so yeah long trip there and home and later shaun had a date with the girl from fireworks night so It was me ben and jess on the way home.

Then they asked it.

They asked if i would be godfather to their son ryan.

I was shocked when i heard them ask...i couldnt speak and we all know i have a loud voice.

i responded with a "i'd be honored"

so yeah.I'm gonna be a godfather

Lost Book

So I was going through my old stuff and behold....

Super Meat Boy: The torture game thats meaty enough to love

Here, have some music to listen to while you read, you won't be disappointed.